You Remind Me

                I really wanted to do a post this week about certain past events from High School I’m still having trouble dealing with. I’ve been trying to reconcile and heal from someone who constantly abused me back then.  Honestly, I started this blog to explore the events and feelings he left me with, and that I don’t know how to heal from. A lot of things have happened recently that keep bringing me back to it, and I’m getting closer to telling people things I’ve never been able to talk about before, but I just don’t have the energy to do the post. I wrote a very personal one, which did in fact deal with him in a very roundabout/subtle way for my church blog this week but I just don’t have the energy or enthusiasm left to write another about it. So instead enjoy this song that has been stuck in my head for a few days. It explains exactly how I feel about this stuff coming up in my life now in a very symbolic way. Or Riq said it did anyway, all I know is that I had it stuck in my head. Thanks subconscious.

You Remind Me of Home
Ben Gibbard & Andrew Kenny

You remind me of home
The paint cracks when the water leaks from the rusty pipes that are just beneath my feet
You remind me of home
The heater's warm but fills the room with a potpourri of dust and gas fumes

You remind me of home
A broken bed with dirty sheets that creaks when I am shifting in my sleep
You remind me of home
In a suburban town with nothing to do, patiently waiting for something to happen

But the foundation is crumbling
And becoming one with the ground
While you lay there in slumber
You're wasting your life
Wasting your life

You remind me of home
Sitting on a thrift store couch, I'm trying to get this all down